[now that he's been gently cajoled by an unknown force]
[glances back to the hallway, wondering if he shouldn't just not do it and say he did. but he came this far and he does really want to know. it's been months and maybe this will make it end. so he reaches for the freezer handle and tugs the gurney free from the wall, rolling it out until it locks into place open]
[he makes the mistake of looking to her face first, or where it should have been, and immediately feels the bile come up in his throat- they weren't lying about her being a mangled mess and his first thought is a weirdly clinical one about how her parents were even able to identify her]
[he uses the wall of locked freezers behind him to steady himself backing up]
no subject
[glances back to the hallway, wondering if he shouldn't just not do it and say he did. but he came this far and he does really want to know. it's been months and maybe this will make it end. so he reaches for the freezer handle and tugs the gurney free from the wall, rolling it out until it locks into place open]
[he makes the mistake of looking to her face first, or where it should have been, and immediately feels the bile come up in his throat- they weren't lying about her being a mangled mess and his first thought is a weirdly clinical one about how her parents were even able to identify her]
[he uses the wall of locked freezers behind him to steady himself backing up]